I wasn't planning on writing another blog post for a while,
but God works in weird ways sometimes. This week has not only been a stressful
one, but also a spiritual journey as well. I asked God for an adventure, and he
certainly put me on one. In chapel on Tuesday, my spiritual life kind of went
another 360. It’s amazing how much God can change you more than you thought he
could. I tend to worry and, as I have said in my past post, anxiety is a big
thing for me.
But here’s the thing: God knows our plans before we even
make them. He knows our hearts desires before we even do. He knows what we are
going to do tonight, tomorrow, and 5 years from now. He wants to know our
hearts, even though he already does. He wants us to let him in even more than
he already is. He longs for us. And in that longing, we can delight and pursue
in it. He longs for you, like a dying man in a desert longs for water.
And ladies, this is for you: I read in a book a few years
ago that you need/should want a man who longs and pursues you like a dying man wants
and longs for water in a dessert. Guys, same with a gal. You want a girl who is
so lost in God that you have to find more of Him before you can truly find her.
BUT, it’s the same with Jesus. HE WANTS US LIKE THAT! Isn't that amazing?! I get excited and happy even thinking about it!
And not only does he want us, but we want him the same way. We need to want God the same way he wants us. We don’t just need to pursue him, we can’t get complacent with just that. No, we need to touch him. Feel him. Want, truly from the depths of our hearts, want him. You feel me?! We need to stop being comfortable with just skimming the surface of all that God wants for us. We need to go in head deep. Pursue him truly with all that we have. We can’t get comfortable. Because once we do, it takes away so much from ourselves. We can’t see God for who he is if we get comfortable.
BUT, it’s the same with Jesus. HE WANTS US LIKE THAT! Isn't that amazing?! I get excited and happy even thinking about it!
And not only does he want us, but we want him the same way. We need to want God the same way he wants us. We don’t just need to pursue him, we can’t get complacent with just that. No, we need to touch him. Feel him. Want, truly from the depths of our hearts, want him. You feel me?! We need to stop being comfortable with just skimming the surface of all that God wants for us. We need to go in head deep. Pursue him truly with all that we have. We can’t get comfortable. Because once we do, it takes away so much from ourselves. We can’t see God for who he is if we get comfortable.
We need to open our eyes, people!
So, if you find yourself struggling with anxiety, BREATH. Relax,
because God has it all under control. Write it somewhere that you see it every
day. And if you are comfortable in your relationship with God, shift your
position. Stand up. Get out of that. There is so much more for you. God has so
much more for you.
Coming from a broken-ish home, I also found myself this week being jealous. I know, dumb. But sometimes, I want a hug from my dad. And I think back on all that he missed out on. All the Father’s day, all the baseball and volleyball games. And yeah, I even wanted awkward moments with my dad just to say that that happened to me too. Because yeah, I’m not like everyone else. I’m a mixed girl who was raised by my grandma. I have a weird relationship with my mom, my dad was in jail, and I probably have brothers and sisters that I've never met. So, sometimes when I lay it all down and think about it, I can get pretty depressed pretty quickly. And jealous. I get sooo jealous, and it’s dumb. I hate that I get jealous, because I am so blessed by other things in my life.
Let’s see, I go to an amazing college, have amazing friends, an amazing nana who is the bomb diggidy and I would probably die without her, and an AMAZING GOD who is SO MUCH BIGGER than all the crap that I get jealous about. Yeah, there are people out there who live with both parents, have awesome siblings, and that’s great. But I have a heavenly father who fills that gap in my heart that my earthly father never could. He could never love me as much as my Father already does. Jesus is and will forever be my Heavenly Father and my earthly father. I seriously get the best of both worlds. (too cheesy? ;)
I needed to realize that it’s okay to have that want and desire for an earthly father. I am human. But, I need to desire my heavenly Father more.
So, I’m good now. The sun is shining, and Gods glory is shining through every part of my life. God is so good. SOOOOO GOOD!
Per tradition, I leave you with an encouraging word. I read this last night in my devotional time and was like “WOAH, I must share this!” So if you have heard of this before, that’s cool, if not, that’s cool too. It’s a cool verse.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Coming from a broken-ish home, I also found myself this week being jealous. I know, dumb. But sometimes, I want a hug from my dad. And I think back on all that he missed out on. All the Father’s day, all the baseball and volleyball games. And yeah, I even wanted awkward moments with my dad just to say that that happened to me too. Because yeah, I’m not like everyone else. I’m a mixed girl who was raised by my grandma. I have a weird relationship with my mom, my dad was in jail, and I probably have brothers and sisters that I've never met. So, sometimes when I lay it all down and think about it, I can get pretty depressed pretty quickly. And jealous. I get sooo jealous, and it’s dumb. I hate that I get jealous, because I am so blessed by other things in my life.
Let’s see, I go to an amazing college, have amazing friends, an amazing nana who is the bomb diggidy and I would probably die without her, and an AMAZING GOD who is SO MUCH BIGGER than all the crap that I get jealous about. Yeah, there are people out there who live with both parents, have awesome siblings, and that’s great. But I have a heavenly father who fills that gap in my heart that my earthly father never could. He could never love me as much as my Father already does. Jesus is and will forever be my Heavenly Father and my earthly father. I seriously get the best of both worlds. (too cheesy? ;)
I needed to realize that it’s okay to have that want and desire for an earthly father. I am human. But, I need to desire my heavenly Father more.
So, I’m good now. The sun is shining, and Gods glory is shining through every part of my life. God is so good. SOOOOO GOOD!
Per tradition, I leave you with an encouraging word. I read this last night in my devotional time and was like “WOAH, I must share this!” So if you have heard of this before, that’s cool, if not, that’s cool too. It’s a cool verse.
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for
my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more
gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (NIV)
Cool verse, right?! :)
